When we are at an unknown juncture in our lives, we tend to cling to our old-world perceptions. We do this because they bring us a sense of familiarity. There is something to ground to. When the world within us, and around us, these perceptions provide an anchor in the storm.
Recently, there was a point where I felt my circumstances had ground to a complete halt. From the outside, it felt as if nothing had changed.
However, my internal world narrated a different story. It felt as if something was brewing, that it was to announce itself. It felt exciting and I felt expectant. In fact, despite the lack of evidence of any progress, I showed up because I wanted to. Each day felt progressive and fruitful.
While I bantered with my conflicted mind about this, I received an insight into this. I was already in the unknown. And I was trying to make sense of what I couldn't understand. Our mind always needs a sense of stability - even a mind experience of what the fall could feel like, before going all in, into the experience.
I then realized that if I stop to define, identify or make sense of the story at this point in my journey, my subconscious mind can deter my well-found momentum. The pause is very well required to check in to the process. But in this case, the process made sense, but the 'no change' didn't. I decided that I might as well keep treading the path because internally I felt as if there was tangible progress in my sense of being. It just felt as if I needed to carve my way through.
And I decided that the smartest thing to do now is to just surrender to nudges and keep going. As long as the inspiration to create overflows, I can keep going and growing through it.
